We won't fight

We are so happy to be with each other 

And . ..

We promising to be with eachother in peace 

We promised not to hurt each other 

.....we promised not to let anger take over our love ...

Anger , love and hatred all are emotions....

We promised not to late anger and hate take over love

We love each other madly and deeply.....and want it to be forever...

lovestory 1970's

 

The story begins from1970’s.

Ramita and Aryan were neighbours,who lived in masangalli, the cozy galli nearby Basantapur .Ramita 6,years old girl was a single daughter of her parents .And Aryan,8 was elder among 3 brothers. They lived the rented room of the houses that were opposite to each other .Their child hood was very beautiful to look at. They spent days playing guccha,ghwai ,lookidoom. Ramita was a don in playing guccha .however ,Aryan used to cheat and used to make Ramita cry .And her mom use to chase Aryan..

Both of them grew to the teen age. They were good friends though they used to quarrel often for silly things .When Aryan turned 13,he started to sell corns, potatoes and grams outside the Ranjana hall.He used to save few money and then struggled a lot having small vendor selling tea ,comics ,newspaper in newroad. Though he had a busy day, Ramita used to come to visit him often and bring him some food to eat. And Aryan would take her to see movies in hall. They even used to dance together in the bollywood songs .Ramita was fond of reading nobels.And Aryan , had a small shop where he sold teas and used to give nobels in hire to the customers. She was lucky to get them in  free from him .

From childhood to teenage and to the twenties they were good friends .Until one day,Aryan’s mother asked Ramita for a favor to convince Aryan to get married and go to meet the lady .Ramita went to convince Aryan and took him to visit the lady’s home to meet. Aryan used to reject all the marriage proposals ,that’s why his mother asked Ramita.Because she knew they were best friends.And Aryan wont refuses what Ramita says.Even both of them were unaware of the feelings for each other .Aryan left from the meeting without saying a word.And Ramita went after him .The other families were in shock that they left without saying a word.

Aryan went straightly without saying a word and Ramita followed him .It was already 8 of the evening .It was a dark night full moon day of mangsir .Ramita followed him to the masanghat .Aryan then,stopped there and waited for Ramita to come near.

Ramita: why did you left from there without  a word?

Aryan : I don’t think I have to reply you

Ramita : why ? why are you angry after all?

Aryan : Don’t you know why am I angry ?

Ramita : No! there is no reason to be .It was a just a meeting.Didnt you  liked that girl.She was so preety . Wasn’t she ? she would be a perfect match  for you .

Aryan : Do you think that so?

(it was a dark night in the masanghat .A total silence .Only two of them .And suddenly there was sound of wolf howling ,Ramita got scared’)

Ramita:why not ?you can only match to her .you are such an idiot to bring me here in this scary place.lets go home (she hold his hand and pulled him)

(Aryan stood still and caught her hand )

Aryan : I love you

Ramita: what ?(full of tears )

Aryan : don’t you hear ? I used to love you from very beginning . But you were the one who didn’t noticed

Ramita: you were the one who expressed it late.And couldn’t know about my feelings

Aryan :ohh!Ramita ! I really love you from the bottom of my heart

Ramita: I knew it already .

Aryan : Why didn’t you told me then?                                                                                                                                                                            

Ramita : to let you confess first

Aryan : I was afraid to loose you as a friend

Ramita : is it so ?thats why you brought me here in this scary place

Aryan: because I didn’t wanted you to run away from me

Both of them,went to their home at that night . Ramita was so scared to tell about Aryan to her mom .She however managed to tell her mom about her relationship with Aryan.But her mother didn’t like Aryan and wanted Ramita to get married to a rich guy.But Ramita refused and told her mom that she would not marry anyone but only Aryan . Because of the fear that Ramita would run away, her mom locked her in her room .Aryan became worried as he hadn’t seen Ramita for many days.They had no means of communication.But Aryan was hopeful to see her at the Indrajatra .

In the first day of indra jatra ,there were many people gathering at Kathmandu Durbarsquare .Eversince the childhood both of them used to watch the jatra from the temple opposite of the kalbhairb.Thus Ramita was hopeful to see Aryan there in the evening . Ramita somehow convinced her mom to watch indra jatra with her friends and waited for Aryan in the temple.To her surprise he was sitting just behind her watching her from behind. Both of them had eyes full of tears when they saw each other

Ramita was hopeful that she would convince her mom but she never accepted Aryan for her daughter.Months passed ,both of them waited for her mom’s approval but she never listened .Because she didn’t want to make her single daughter live in poverty. But Ramita was a optimistic and believed on Aryan.She was blindly in love with Aryan and didn’t wanted to lose him in any cost .She was ready to sacrifice her luxurious life and live with Aryan no matter what the situation. She had confidence to live a happy life with Aryan .

It was the early in the morning,Ramita’s mom went out near by temple for pooja.Ramita was locked on her room.She asked her maid to open the door lock .Then she took nothing but few saving with her and rushed out of her home. Aryan was asusual selling tea in Newroad .She met Aryan and told him that she has fled from her home.Aryan packed his shop and then went to nearby bus stand at ratnapark where they got into the bus which led them to their happy life at Bhaktapur.And the story continues.

 swords that chop you apart

the violence that you cant speak about 

 hey cute soul you must not roam around freely 

 because there are evil soul surrounding you 

they will scratch you ,pinch you 

but still you cant speak out

hey innocent emotions please go away 

please let the boldness come and stay 

please let the confidence come up

to speak up the truth 

to punish the culprit 

so that the incident that has occured

 shall never ever occur to others

shout aloud !yes this has happen

there are the ones who will hear 

god knows that you are not able to bear

so cry out aloud and dont keep it with in heart

those will only chop you into peices 

there are many others like you 

those innocent faces 

  if you dont speak up now 

this same story will begin

you will burn inside 

and so will the innocnet faces 

so  pretty ! let  bold and confidence come 

and shout out aloud 

dont ever keep on bearing the pain 

 let it be out from your soul

so speak out aloud

Hi! i am now 25 years and a month old.I am in a relationship with him since i was sixteen.Feelings for him hasn't changed yet.but i realized his feelings has changed. He is my first priority in my phone.As soon as i am free from my training i suppose to call him every time before i go to home.because even in my home,the priority changes. the household chores, environment in home isn't often suitable for us to talk freely with each other, even i don't like to talk to him when i am around my family friends .i cant find space to talk to him.i find my self some space, go to an empty room or get out of home for few minutes just to catch him up in phone.i hoped he understood me .But for now , i haven't been able to understand .in the morning he is in rush to reach office,so there is no way to talk on that time.And bankers don't get single seconds free while they are on work.I use to wait for his call in between 5 pm to 6 pm ,that's when his office time is over.And i wish to receive his call.But usually its me who is calling him often,and in the time when i wait for his,i don't get his call and he ends up in his home while i call him after waiting for an hour.

i feel ignored,hurt and alone.i wish i could catch up with my friends and ignore him too.i have put his numbers in the block list.i think i must be independent and don't seek for his time and attention.Walking in roads alone ,i search for friends who can i talk comfortably.But those hundreds of friends in my friend list in my facebook are not the one who can understand me .And even i cant even open up to them.May be i have lots of free time due to covid 19 lockdown.God! i wish i become busy as i was before.I dont like to be alone.

i am scared

i am loosing my self

feeling of loosing my world

they say you will have a new world with your life partner    

please don't misunderstand me 

i am just scared of the situations life has brought in my life

i am not ready for the changes 

i am really scared to loose my mom's hug

i know this is social norms and value

being a girl i have never stayed apart from my mom dad my brother not even in a hostel

and imagining a new life without them its devastating feeling 

oh my dear its OK if you don't understand  but atleast don't misunderstand me 

Mero prem patra

Subhaprabhat mero priya jeewan sathi
Subhaprabhat sunaulo din ko kamana  sangai
Subhaprabhat naya  Josh ra umanga ko lagi
Subhaprabhat cha feri hamro  premko  naya  bihani  ko lagi
Timi sanga bitayeka  mitha pal haru
Jhaljhali ayirakheka chan mera ankha ma jhai  mitha sapana
timi sanga euta chana Muni angalo ma badhera basne ho mero chahana
Bihana Jaba ankha kholu taba timlai nai dekhu ma sarwapratham
Rat jaba chaye timro angalo ma badhi mitha sapana dekhu vai timro prem ma atmasamparpan
Mera kalpana jhan mitha chan herana
Khusi chaucha yesle mero man ma
Tara sath euta tadpan pani huncha mitho timro avas pani ani bisalu timro avab pani
Timro harek sparsa lai samayeko chu  mero yad ma
Na Chinna  kasaile sakcha timlai ma dekhi tadha
Ankha ko gahirai ma baseko chau bas gari
Prem sambhanda hamro bich cha dherai Gadha

The streets are Empty but  ain't our hearts
Full of Hopes these black days will leave us soon
Just like the sun when shines , the dark night leaves us with the memory of moon
Heartly salute to the the great professions pursuers
The doctors,nurses,army and police officers
If wishes made were to be fulfilled
Oh my dear brothers,sisters and my all human family
A heart felt condolence to the thousand of them who were killed
 fast recoveries to the one who are suffered through this evil
Let's follow strict preventives and  through soap washout the devil.