Hi! i am now 25 years and a month old.I am in a relationship with him since i was sixteen.Feelings for him hasn't changed yet.but i realized his feelings has changed. He is my first priority in my phone.As soon as i am free from my training i suppose to call him every time before i go to home.because even in my home,the priority changes. the household chores, environment in home isn't often suitable for us to talk freely with each other, even i don't like to talk to him when i am around my family friends .i cant find space to talk to him.i find my self some space, go to an empty room or get out of home for few minutes just to catch him up in phone.i hoped he understood me .But for now , i haven't been able to understand .in the morning he is in rush to reach office,so there is no way to talk on that time.And bankers don't get single seconds free while they are on work.I use to wait for his call in between 5 pm to 6 pm ,that's when his office time is over.And i wish to receive his call.But usually its me who is calling him often,and in the time when i wait for his,i don't get his call and he ends up in his home while i call him after waiting for an hour.

i feel ignored,hurt and alone.i wish i could catch up with my friends and ignore him too.i have put his numbers in the block list.i think i must be independent and don't seek for his time and attention.Walking in roads alone ,i search for friends who can i talk comfortably.But those hundreds of friends in my friend list in my facebook are not the one who can understand me .And even i cant even open up to them.May be i have lots of free time due to covid 19 lockdown.God! i wish i become busy as i was before.I dont like to be alone.